I Don’t Want To Die

I just stepped on the scale yesterday morning.

It said I weigh 286 pounds – that’s 101 pounds more than I weighed when I graduated from high school!

I’m only 41 years old, but if I want to live for another 40-50 years or more, then I guess I need to start losing a lot of weight right now. You don’t see very many 300-pound men walking around in their 80s, and there’s a reason for that…

They’re all dead.       

So, after stepping off the scale, I decided that I’m taking a different path. My obesity has been stripping away years and even decades from my life, but maybe it’s not too late to get those years back – at least, some of them.

We’re pretty lucky to have a little gym here in our condo complex. It’s not much of a gym, just a multi-station for lifting weights and a few cardio machines, but it’s enough to burn up some calories and improve my health. So last night I walked over there after dinner and did several sets of pulldowns and chest presses. It wasn’t much of a workout – maybe just 30 minutes or so, maybe 15 sets total with fairly light weights – but it got my heart pumping and my muscles burning and my sweat dripping, so I think it counts.

And I think I’ll do it again tonight when I get home.

Let’s hope I stick with it this time — not like last time when I was going to do pushups every day…

Cartoon: pushups fail

Should I Set A Weight Loss Goal?

This is the point where I would talk about how I have all these goals and I have this great plan and I’ll do THIS and I’ll do THAT and WATCH OUT WORLD because I’m going to lose SO MUCH weight and blah blah blah. See, that’s why I’m feeling so burned out on blogging lately. I’m all talk and no action (or not much action, at least).

So maybe I’m not going to waste my time right now coming up with goals and plans and all that. My only goal is to walk back over to that gym again tonight and do SOMETHING.

That’ll be good enough for now.

2 thoughts on “I Don’t Want To Die

  1. I saw your other post on I Work Off the Clock and all around I think you’re on to a good thing here. You know, after quitting my job in 2012, it took about 6 months for me to realize it wasn’t working. Maybe it would have, but I just couldn’t see it really going anywhere. Even writing at HubPages was more successful than blogging. I’ve NEVER made the money blogging that I did at HP. I’ve made friends, sure, and learned some nifty things, but…
    I relate this because the lesson I personally derived from all that is that should I quit my job again – which I’d like to – I need to have a definite stream of income to replace the income I have now.
    Alas, I’m *so* not there.
    It’s hard to make a living doing this.
    And it’s even harder to pull yourself away to take care of yourself.
    Those six months I stayed home and worked? I gained like 30 pounds. I was chained to the computer thinking that if I crank out more content, if I spread my content far and wide on social media, that somehow it’ll all pay off.
    It didn’t. 16-17 hours a day didn’t do crap for me. And I got very disillusioned with blogging.
    I’m sure that I could have done things differently and I did make a lot of mistakes.
    But now, I blog for fun and look to other avenues to make a buck. I still want to write a lot more for HP but…dang it, if I want to write books then I have to choose one or the other.
    And I want to post my photography to Zazzle. It’s tedious to do that, though.
    So, kudos to you: kudos for taking care of yourself, kudos for trying and not giving up – for so often success would have come right after the point where we gave up – but kudos for doing your thing and trying out new things.
    Alas, I’m so glad to have gotten to know you in this here blogosphere. You’ll get there. It involves many tweaks and changes, but flexibility and adaptability – man those are two qualities I definitely had to learn as I endeavored (and failed) to be a blogger. *sigh*
    Hope you’re well. And for the record, your comics blow most people’s art out of the water. They really do. And they’re so awesome!!

  2. Hi Cynthia, thank you so much. You always have helpful and encouraging things to say, and I appreciate that.

    Blogging for the past 4 years has been interesting, to say the least. Like you and so many others in our circles, I never earned much money with blogging — certainly less than I made at HubPages or with my Amazon niche sites. But I’ve made a few friends, and I think it’s pretty cool that here we are, still hanging out after all this time. That’s pretty cool in itself.

    I’m not giving up on the “FULL-TIME BLOGGER” dream, but I’m done chasing after pennies and giving money (and the lack of it) power over my life. It’s time to stop worrying about the money and just have fun again. If money shows up, that’s cool. That’s still the plan. But I need to put LIFE back at the top of the pyramid and put MONEY somewhere down below that.

    Things’ll work out. I believe that.

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