Writer Burnout SUCKS

It’s 3:52am on a Wednesday morning here in Las Vegas.

I’m tired AF, but I dunno. I woke up and took a shit half an hour ago, and now I’m wide awake.

On any normal day, I would just go back to bed. But I guess this isn’t any normal day.

Enter: Writer Burnout

I’m a writer, but I haven’t been doing much writing lately. It’s not for lack of trying. I mean, I sit at my laptop for 8-10 hours a day. Every damn day.

But nothing comes out. I am totally burned out.

And I’m just at a loss for what to do to turn this around. It might continue like this for another year. Or it might turn around tomorrow. I have no idea.

I started writing online March 10, 2012 as a blogger and freelance writer. I’ve written around 1,000 articles for clients at content mills (sites like Textbroker, Zerys, WriterAccess). And I’ve also written probably 300+ blog posts for my own websites over the years too.

So I’m a real writer – a working professional. I don’t make a TON of money as a content writer, but I was always able to at least pay a few bills every month with my weekly payouts. As far as side hustles go, this one is legit. And I’m good at it.

I’ve been paid thousands of dollars to write stuff. And after years of low-paying gigs, I’m finally getting some breaks with higher-paying work (well, compared to the extremely lowball pay I’ve earned at some of the content mills and on my old blogs).

In fact, right now I’ve got a few hundred dollars of work lined up for me, but my clients are stressing out because I keep pushing back deadlines and flaking out on them. I’m burning bridges left and right.

This is not who I am, and it’s frustrating the hell out of me.

This stretch of writer burnout has been going on for months, and over the summer things really went downhill. It’s at the point now where I am going entire weeks with zero output and not even earning $100 in a month, despite the fact that I sit at my computer to write every damn day – and feel mentally exhausted every damn night.

I hate this shit.

Why can’t I just do the damn work, make my clients happy, get my money, pay my bills and move forward?

What Is Causing My Burnout?

As I look back at my numbers, I realize that things have been going downhill for about two years now, whereas my earnings were progressing upward for the previous 12 months. In fact, I can actually point to the month where things first started to deteriorate – November 2017.

My best month ever as a freelance writer was actually October 2017. But then something happened in November that reversed my upward momentum and sent me into a downward spiral.

Due to litigation, I still can’t talk about what happened (relax, it’s nothing crazy or criminal), and I won’t be able to talk about it for at least another year (which is pure torture for a blogger). But I can definitely pinpoint my downward spiral to that event. I mean, you can literally see it in my monthly earnings (and in my weight gain).

The interesting thing is that it has absolutely nothing to do with my work and my writing business. It’s totally unrelated. It’s a completely separate area of my life, but it affects just about everything else going on in my life.

I guess this drives home the point that everything in your life is connected. And sometimes the solution has nothing to do with the problem (or at least, the problem and solution appear completely disconnected on the surface).

Now What?

So I don’t have any happy ending to wrap up this little blog post. Not yet. I just needed to vent.

I have two articles to write for one of my clients – due tomorrow. And I don’t think she can push back the deadlines AGAIN, so it’s now or never.

7,500 words up on deck.

$225 waiting for me.

Then I have six more test articles to do for another potential client. And they’ve been waiting WEEKS for those.

Sigh.

Maybe tomorrow will be ok.

1 thought on “Writer Burnout SUCKS

  1. I can pinpoint my crash back to 2012…when I had to shut down my computer business. Sure, I became a successful freelance writer, but the damage was great enough to ruin a 15-year relationship. It snowballed and slowly ate away at me. So, I kind of know how you feel. At one point, I even moved 1200 miles away from my daughters, which I returned 6 months later…can’t be without my babies.

    My point is that even though things are rough, you need to focus on more of the positive. What ever happened in 2017, let it be a learning experience and move on.

    After losing my son, I could easily sink into despair. Or, I can rise above it and do more to make him, as well as my surviving kids, proud.

    Let’s find the motivation together to go beyond ourselves and see our own potential. I know it’s difficult…trust me, I know. But, I think we can accomplish great things if we can spark that passion again and say, “The line must be drawn here, this far, no further!” Yeah…quoting Star Trek. But it rings true.

    We. Got. This.

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